Maintaining the Point-Keeping the Focus of this Blog

So I have had a month of blogging experience. My aims for writing this blog both back in January and now have changed. I guess I can't really explain why I am doing this blog in the first place. Originally it was a means of dictating and scribing my thoughts and ideas on changing my dress and appearance to a strictly Gothic look. This quickly changed to an acceptance of simply the alternate lifestyle. A darker side to the alternative way but not necessarily about being Goth.

I have talked about labels and their implementation as well as perceptions on what we want to be, what we really are and what we project to others through our image and attitude. From there it developed into a blog on lifestyle, work, jobs and just general day to day this and that.

Ultimately I believe this blog has been a means of organising my mind. Call it confusion, uncertainty or even a degree of identity crises. However this blog has given me many things I did not have previous. I have a greater confidence in myself as a person. An individual person with my own thoughts, ideas and opinions. I can wear what I want with a greater confidence. I do not always wear chainy trousers. Nor do I always were just a simple outfit. I can switch and change at will and still feel happy and confident in myself and my own unique identity. I don't feel a need nor desire to conform to any labels or pre-conceived ideas about what I should wear. I am doing things for me and not for society or its labels. I have a tattoo now. It is special to me in its image and meaning as well to a degree in its location.

These blogs are in a way a means of laying out my mind (mind mapping in a sense). It allows me to dabble if you will in an interest without getting either to involved or over involved to quickly. The more I write the more I understand and the more my knowledge grows. I guess it acts as a form of safety net. I can observe at a distance and enjoy it from this 'safe' distance. My former experience of the Army has taught me to not get over involved. It taught me the difference of a healthy interest and a damaging obsession, the latter being my problem and reason for leaving. I do not think I have an obsessive personality but I do go through phases of extreme focus and then a complete loss of all interest.

I have decided also to begin another blog. I do not know what I wish to entitle it. However its content shall consist at its core of Buddhism. It is my own personal belief. I wish to learn more about it and throughout the blog try to practice a better, less greedy and less selfish way of love, compassion, generosity and kindness. I feel such things are at times massively lacking. I will keep you posted on this.

So that is a quick update on everything. This blog will never have consistency or a common theme. It will be random and float loosely around the theme of the alternative, and all things so. But hey, that's me to a tea... :)