Religion and Spirituality-The Subconscious Awareness

I came from a Roman Catholic background. I have been baptised and educated into the Catholic Church and it's ways. It did not take long for me to stray from this pre-determined path for me. I felt the Church was so constricting, full of  double negatives, double standards and double contradictions. I got to a point where I was actively and openly rejecting and denouncing the Roman Catholic Church all of the time. It was not until Sixth Form that I began to truly think about what religion was perhaps the best for me. Whist I had rejected the Catholic way, I still saw myself as a deeply religious and spiritual individual. I have always had a feeling of 'something greater' in the world. That just was not God or Jesus. My gripe extends far beyond the word limit of this blog so I will not go into it.

I started with Buddhism and various other meditation/reincarnation orientated religions. I was perhaps led to this because of a massive fear of death I had. The belief in reincarnation really helped me with that. While I rarely worry about such a trivial thing, when I do, I can just consider such things as reincarnation and rebirth and I am fine. Buddhism stayed with me for a few years. During this time and for a great number more years, I have always been interested in New Age and Spiritualistic Faiths and Religions. These include Wicca, Witchcraft, Paganism and all those in-between These were more of an interest to me than something I truly considered at the time.

 

It has only been until recently that this desire to find my religious and spiritual path growing. There is always a feeling that whist me earthly body is happy and fulfilled, my spiritual one has no grounding and guidance. For me this is really important. I desire this sense of spiritual focus and direction. There has been this feeling of emptiness for the last 3 or so years, perhaps more. This may be due to the imbalances I have had in my earth bound life. This is now, for perhaps the first time ever, happy and stable. I could never effectively practise and preach my beliefs because they were not constant, in disarray and under pressure from my life. 

Even now, there are few certainties. However, I am happy. I am ready to face the world and have a life. My girlfriend mentioned that she thinks I have changed. I agreed with her but I feel it is simply me growing up and changing for the better. Becoming that happy person I have always sought but never found. 

I have always loved Nature, animals and the connection between nature and the earth. I believe in the spirit of the forest and the nature of good in the world. I believe in ghosts, spirits and the paranormal. I believe in reincarnation. I believe in the the chi and balance of good and evil in the world. I believe in evil and its existence as a negative entity in the world, causing war, famine, greed and unhappiness. It is not necessarily about believing in God's and hierarchy. It is simply the appreciation of the world as an entity and as a life force.

In the Native American Culture and Religion, animals and Nature are sacred and are represented as spiritual entities. I simply feel that in the western world we live in today, the values of such things are largely ignored. Why can't someone appreciate the sanctity of nature and the spirit of the animal whist working in an office?

This blog has been clearly developing as some of you may have seen. I am in no way abandoning it but there may be an assortment of both religious exploration as well as the usual alternative comment. I refer you back to a few posts ago, describing the nature of this blog as a mind sorting tool over anything.

I therefore leave you with this video. You will probably know it. 

1.14 always gets me!